i have a new bag and i love it!!
the paths of the bag and i began to wend our ways towards each other last week when i got an email from my dear friend Bea suggesting that we meet up soon, so today was the date we set and today we did meet :o)
i havent seen Bea for about 18 months and i have missed her so! we drank coffee, talked lots, laughed at the idiocy of the world and people in it. we talked about her horses, her soon to be horse and going riding!! yay!! going riding! i havent been riding in soooo long! very exciting stuff that i have time for now i have the kids in school ;o) which we also talked about at length and once more, on the same page.
i had a spinning hook for her that was got for crimbly before last gift!! finally it made it to her and she liked (i hope?? you did didnt you bea??) and she gave me the most gorg felted bag!! oh lordy!! this bag is gorg! its moss coloured, greens and browns and beige, looks wonderful with my green boots, i've may have mentioned how much i love it, but i really do! i must photograph it!! lol we had a wander around hobbycraft for a bit, i picked up some little cross stitch kits for the girls and some free leaflets and she got some wee flowers for knitting and it was back to haskins for more coffee.
it is now a blustery cold wet evening and paul has the circus tickets booked for 7.30! eeekkk i've drunk so much coffee today, i hope my bladder can take it! lol
whilst i was out, the girls baked, sparks and paul moved sparks room around and beau slept, only to wake as i walked in the door and scream at length on my lap, i guess tis what i get for taking 4 hours out without my flickies.new bag is to be packed up with supplies for the circus now.
amor mundi
Saturday 29 March 2008
Friday 28 March 2008
i am a
You Are a Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich |
 You life your life in a free form, artistic style. You are incredibly creative and at times, quite messy. Deep down, you are a kid at heart. And you aren't afraid to express it. Your best friend: The Grilled Cheese Sandwich Your mortal enemy: The Club Sandwich |
Thursday 27 March 2008
today stuff
got up mega early and did 3 miles on the exercise strider thang! yay! now it works, i have no excuses!! i must use it, i must shift this weight, hopefully will make this bloody hiatus hernia easier and i really wanna get into a size 12!!
some washing, some housework, used the washing line, only to have some idiot burning wood in their fireplace! ffs! not only does it make loads of smoke in the fireplace, it also fills gardens with horrid smelly smoke too! is it me, or are most people fecking idiots, ok dont answer that ;o)
went to therapy and after a half session, she decided that i was through with therapy. now that is fine, i know that most of what i needed was to realise that this wasnt me, that i am not to blame for my failure parents and bullshitter grandfather. it can hurt and i can get over it. the rest was a waste of her time and mine. she also said it is nice to laugh during a session, she accused me once of using humour to stear from what the questions were and wasting my time with chitchat. i honestly dont think she got me that well and liked me less. probly just my paranoia, who cares?? she got her money, i got better! she thought i should really think about using my humour/talents (which she still couldnt actually tell me what they were) to achieve something, get a job, a bit of a life etc. i havent the time, a job would have to earn me a lot of money to be finanically viable with child care, school runs, house duties to be covered as well as everything else. and quite honestly, if i had a job i'd need a feck of a lot of energy to make time for my kids too! which i think she got. i've done the CBT and the schema therapy, bought the books, now just need the tshirt! lol
anyways, going back in june for a follow up, see what progress i've made and all that.
going to do some more on my strider in a mo, whilst the kids tea (baked salmon, boiled pots and mixed veg) is cooking.
christine is here, so havent seen hide nor hair of river or beau since she arrived. i wonder if she has eaten them ......
some washing, some housework, used the washing line, only to have some idiot burning wood in their fireplace! ffs! not only does it make loads of smoke in the fireplace, it also fills gardens with horrid smelly smoke too! is it me, or are most people fecking idiots, ok dont answer that ;o)
went to therapy and after a half session, she decided that i was through with therapy. now that is fine, i know that most of what i needed was to realise that this wasnt me, that i am not to blame for my failure parents and bullshitter grandfather. it can hurt and i can get over it. the rest was a waste of her time and mine. she also said it is nice to laugh during a session, she accused me once of using humour to stear from what the questions were and wasting my time with chitchat. i honestly dont think she got me that well and liked me less. probly just my paranoia, who cares?? she got her money, i got better! she thought i should really think about using my humour/talents (which she still couldnt actually tell me what they were) to achieve something, get a job, a bit of a life etc. i havent the time, a job would have to earn me a lot of money to be finanically viable with child care, school runs, house duties to be covered as well as everything else. and quite honestly, if i had a job i'd need a feck of a lot of energy to make time for my kids too! which i think she got. i've done the CBT and the schema therapy, bought the books, now just need the tshirt! lol
anyways, going back in june for a follow up, see what progress i've made and all that.
going to do some more on my strider in a mo, whilst the kids tea (baked salmon, boiled pots and mixed veg) is cooking.
christine is here, so havent seen hide nor hair of river or beau since she arrived. i wonder if she has eaten them ......
Tuesday 25 March 2008
there and back again
no, this isnt a hobbits tale!!
went to the hospital for 9am, took me my books, my ipod, a note book. paul and the kids left as i went to be booked in.
i was offered sedation, but in the end went without as i really just wanted to get out of there and sedation would have meant another hour/hour and half at least before i could go. i had the throat spray which was (as all fake banana flavoured things are) absolutly vile! evily vile! the surgen explained what was what and what she was going to do. then a HUGE (approx 5 foot long!) tube was connected to the machine beside me and a nurse talked me through being relaxed and put a thing in to keep my mouth open. this was good as i kept biting on it. the throat spray stuff didnt really do a lot, and i did gag and retch lots, but it was all over within about 4 mins with the lovely nurse telling me how well i was doing, to relax, breathe, calm, the whole time. i could feel it in my mouth, throat, oesophagus, stomach. not plesant, but better than a stomach pump!
on the way out, she spotted the problem, hiatus hernia. and it was over, bit more retching and kind of puking, but not, a loud beltch and i was done. she asked had i had any children, yea 5, ah that would be a large part of it. basically my stomach starts in my chest, its about 3 inches above where it should be. she gave me a hand out that says, dont drink red wine (i dont) dont eat large meals, cut down smoking (i've quit) and caffine (damn but i nneeeeeddd!! it!) and cheese! CHEEESE! no CHEESE!! how will i live without cheese??? i love cheese!! oh and loosing more weight.
was taken back to the ward (only a few doors along from the scopyroom) and whilst all those sedated were sleeping it off, i was up and dressed and ready to go, got letter for my gp (which i forgot to drop off, oh dear what a shame) and sent on my way. paul and kids were there already after going to the park for less than an hour!
still feels like i have something large down my throat, but have eaten and drunk and trying to rehydrate! i woke at 1.30am and had a large glass of water and thought, bollox to it, i need to drink and was told when i got to the unit that i only needed to fast for 6 hours! so that was ok, i'm just very thirsty now.
paul has gone back to work, kids are playing in the garden, the sun is shining and i can take antacids again and drink and eat and everything, i dont have cancer or an ulcer, just a silly herniated stomach. all is ok :o)
amor mundi
went to the hospital for 9am, took me my books, my ipod, a note book. paul and the kids left as i went to be booked in.
i was offered sedation, but in the end went without as i really just wanted to get out of there and sedation would have meant another hour/hour and half at least before i could go. i had the throat spray which was (as all fake banana flavoured things are) absolutly vile! evily vile! the surgen explained what was what and what she was going to do. then a HUGE (approx 5 foot long!) tube was connected to the machine beside me and a nurse talked me through being relaxed and put a thing in to keep my mouth open. this was good as i kept biting on it. the throat spray stuff didnt really do a lot, and i did gag and retch lots, but it was all over within about 4 mins with the lovely nurse telling me how well i was doing, to relax, breathe, calm, the whole time. i could feel it in my mouth, throat, oesophagus, stomach. not plesant, but better than a stomach pump!
on the way out, she spotted the problem, hiatus hernia. and it was over, bit more retching and kind of puking, but not, a loud beltch and i was done. she asked had i had any children, yea 5, ah that would be a large part of it. basically my stomach starts in my chest, its about 3 inches above where it should be. she gave me a hand out that says, dont drink red wine (i dont) dont eat large meals, cut down smoking (i've quit) and caffine (damn but i nneeeeeddd!! it!) and cheese! CHEEESE! no CHEESE!! how will i live without cheese??? i love cheese!! oh and loosing more weight.
was taken back to the ward (only a few doors along from the scopyroom) and whilst all those sedated were sleeping it off, i was up and dressed and ready to go, got letter for my gp (which i forgot to drop off, oh dear what a shame) and sent on my way. paul and kids were there already after going to the park for less than an hour!
still feels like i have something large down my throat, but have eaten and drunk and trying to rehydrate! i woke at 1.30am and had a large glass of water and thought, bollox to it, i need to drink and was told when i got to the unit that i only needed to fast for 6 hours! so that was ok, i'm just very thirsty now.
paul has gone back to work, kids are playing in the garden, the sun is shining and i can take antacids again and drink and eat and everything, i dont have cancer or an ulcer, just a silly herniated stomach. all is ok :o)
amor mundi
Monday 24 March 2008
off to hossy tomorrow
and this time it is for me!
going to have a gastroscopy aka camera down me throat and into my stomach to have a look around and see if they can tell why i keep getting these horrible stomach pains and chest pains that i need to take painkillers to get through. at the moment i dont know where i am sposed to be going, only that i need to be there at 9.15am and i have no babysitter for kids and no letter and the phone lines dont open until 10am!! how fecking stoopid is that????
went to heavy horse centre today and heard that the lovely suffolk punch they had, yvette, died in january :-( she was a sweet heart and fought and fought for life, but it all got a bit much and she gave up before the owners had to make the choice to say enough is enough. in good news, smokey joe is walking and pulling the cart! his manky foot is under control!! yay!! go smokey dude!!
i have decided that i want a wolf, well a czech wolf dog actually, which are >20% wolf, but look like them and are bloody gorg! am researching, asking lots of questions to breeders and trying to locate one for less that £1,500 :-O
on nil by mouth from midnight, so gonna go have some rasberries and icecream now and wash down couple of pints of water and to bed. have had a bit of a chest infection the last few days AGAIN, only the 2nd in the last month! hearing still not back properly as antibiotics are rubbish! havent been able to take any antacids for 2 weeks so have had horrible indigestion whether i eat or not and am all but falling apart!
moan over .....
going to go do more hunting for this fecking letter!!
going to have a gastroscopy aka camera down me throat and into my stomach to have a look around and see if they can tell why i keep getting these horrible stomach pains and chest pains that i need to take painkillers to get through. at the moment i dont know where i am sposed to be going, only that i need to be there at 9.15am and i have no babysitter for kids and no letter and the phone lines dont open until 10am!! how fecking stoopid is that????
went to heavy horse centre today and heard that the lovely suffolk punch they had, yvette, died in january :-( she was a sweet heart and fought and fought for life, but it all got a bit much and she gave up before the owners had to make the choice to say enough is enough. in good news, smokey joe is walking and pulling the cart! his manky foot is under control!! yay!! go smokey dude!!
i have decided that i want a wolf, well a czech wolf dog actually, which are >20% wolf, but look like them and are bloody gorg! am researching, asking lots of questions to breeders and trying to locate one for less that £1,500 :-O
on nil by mouth from midnight, so gonna go have some rasberries and icecream now and wash down couple of pints of water and to bed. have had a bit of a chest infection the last few days AGAIN, only the 2nd in the last month! hearing still not back properly as antibiotics are rubbish! havent been able to take any antacids for 2 weeks so have had horrible indigestion whether i eat or not and am all but falling apart!
moan over .....
going to go do more hunting for this fecking letter!!
Wednesday 19 March 2008
hhmmm meant to do this before!!
havent blogged for over a week, and i keep thinking "must blog about this!" and not doing it!! arrgghhh need more hours in the day!
today we went to the hospital AGAIN to see the consultant for a follow up on beaus choking episode, all ok and it just seems to be the way she is, having an abnormally high palate, like me! see, i knew i could get it to be my fault! lol long and short is, she is ok, total return to normal self and we have to be aware of the potential for it happening again. which we are. she is refered to the maxillofacial specialist, mr marcus and the speech therapy dept, even tho she is one of the most fluent and prolific talkers for a not quite 3 year old!
am off to stonehenge travelodge tonight for trip to henge for dawn, tomorrow being oestara aka spring equinox. meeting up with dan and eli and thier boys, heres hoping for a clear morning! dawn is a stoopid oclock aka 6.11!! ffs! couldnt they have started summer daylight saving last weekend?? lol
gotta be back for 11am, tis only hour and half away, as have my cross trainer arriving and i wanna get to build it! need to work off this nearly stone i've put on since giving up smoking again :o( and am far too fat to be seen at the gym in a tracky or the like! there is laws against it i'm sure, if there arent THERE SHOULD BE!!
kids last day at school tomorrow before the unbelievably early easter break. i have bought the kids daffs to give their teachers, river has point blank refused, dunno what his problem is, maybe he thinks mr hatchard wouldnt like them *scratches head*. got chase a few bit from lush and a bottle of clary sage and new flannel to give to her heavily preggy teacher who is off on maternity leave tomorrow, she has been so lovely and helped chase a lot since they started in december, wanted to get her something special and nice :o)
hopefully will blog again tomorrow with pix of henge on a beautiful spring morning!!
amor mundi
today we went to the hospital AGAIN to see the consultant for a follow up on beaus choking episode, all ok and it just seems to be the way she is, having an abnormally high palate, like me! see, i knew i could get it to be my fault! lol long and short is, she is ok, total return to normal self and we have to be aware of the potential for it happening again. which we are. she is refered to the maxillofacial specialist, mr marcus and the speech therapy dept, even tho she is one of the most fluent and prolific talkers for a not quite 3 year old!
am off to stonehenge travelodge tonight for trip to henge for dawn, tomorrow being oestara aka spring equinox. meeting up with dan and eli and thier boys, heres hoping for a clear morning! dawn is a stoopid oclock aka 6.11!! ffs! couldnt they have started summer daylight saving last weekend?? lol
gotta be back for 11am, tis only hour and half away, as have my cross trainer arriving and i wanna get to build it! need to work off this nearly stone i've put on since giving up smoking again :o( and am far too fat to be seen at the gym in a tracky or the like! there is laws against it i'm sure, if there arent THERE SHOULD BE!!
kids last day at school tomorrow before the unbelievably early easter break. i have bought the kids daffs to give their teachers, river has point blank refused, dunno what his problem is, maybe he thinks mr hatchard wouldnt like them *scratches head*. got chase a few bit from lush and a bottle of clary sage and new flannel to give to her heavily preggy teacher who is off on maternity leave tomorrow, she has been so lovely and helped chase a lot since they started in december, wanted to get her something special and nice :o)
hopefully will blog again tomorrow with pix of henge on a beautiful spring morning!!
amor mundi
Monday 10 March 2008
coz willow made me!!
1. Go to www.photobucket.com (don't sign in)
2. Type in your answer to the question in the search box.
3. Use only the first page to look for the appropriate answer.
4. Copy the HTML and paste under the question for the answer.
1. What's your name?
2. Relationship status?
3. Favourite colour?
4. What are you listening to right now?
5. Favourite movie?
6. Where is your dream vacation?
(yes i want to go back!)
7. What's your favourite dessert?
8. One word to describe yourself...
9. Your eye colour is...
10. The last book you read...
11. Night or day?
12. Oranges or apples?
13. Chocolate or vanilla?
2. Type in your answer to the question in the search box.
3. Use only the first page to look for the appropriate answer.
4. Copy the HTML and paste under the question for the answer.
1. What's your name?
2. Relationship status?
3. Favourite colour?
4. What are you listening to right now?
5. Favourite movie?
6. Where is your dream vacation?
(yes i want to go back!)
7. What's your favourite dessert?
8. One word to describe yourself...
9. Your eye colour is...
10. The last book you read...
11. Night or day?
12. Oranges or apples?
13. Chocolate or vanilla?
Thursday 6 March 2008
poetry
following on from yesterday, i had planned to put up willows pappys fav poem, but poetry file is hiding from me and i cant be arsed to search the house for it!!
beau has to go for some tests to make sure her throat has returned to norman and to see if norman is not what her throat should be, there was lots of swelling and it was an odd shape when they xrayed after the choking incident. she is looking forward to going, i know she is going to kick off and not drink the stuff or stay still for the xray and it is going to be oh so much fun!
i have my parcels packed up and ready to go, just gotta send em off, so that is on the cards too, as well as opening bank account for the window cleaning round.
its all go here!
spent the day with stephen the human sex god yesterday. he phoned me saying he had turned his phone on early yesterday incase i called, i have given up calling in the morning as either his phone is off or he doesnt answer or he does answer and was sleeping so tells me politely to feck off.
anyways, we went out for lunch to sainsbos, drank coffee and ate expensive sandwiches and he chatted away to beau who was playing shy. t'was really good fun, then popped down to see rob, his 6foot 5 friend who was a total star for me when i lost the plot in june. beau thinks he is god and was hoping to raid his fridge, the cheeky mare! his ginger cat, jasper (who looks like my morpheus) was about and being all cute and cuddly (not like him at all!) then climbed on the roof and started doing his "i'm a ginger cat and i'm just plan odd" bit, just to stay in character.
went and got kids from school and then a very strange thing happened, steve showed them how to make and fly the best paper planes, edz totally got it and made around 50 of the bloody things! then from planes they moved onto birds and then frogs and in the end, we had a whole frog chorus and enough birds to keep the pidgeons out the garden! lol he only drank 3 bottles of beer (after the 2 can of kestral) and didnt swear either!
if you dont know steve his is a raving alcoholic, that swears and smokes and cant stand being around the kids too long. yesterday, he was in his element and so were they! and also got me to order some books from ebay about origami so he can do more with them.
so he does have his uses, no matter what anyone says!
when i took him home, we were chatting about a certain person that we both know and someone that they like, turns out the liked person is my bessy mate niccis boyfriends sister, and also stephens brothers bessy mate. sycronisity again! so i popped over nic's on the way home and freaked her out demanding to know why she was out with steves brother when i was in manchester! rofl she thought i was having a go at her, bless her. as if i could, my lovely lil naughty nitty ;o) so to come full circle, that is all a kind of poetry in itself, the whole continuation with rhythm and rhyme, my life is at about 3 degrees of seperation at the moment!!
small world keeps getting smaller.
beau has to go for some tests to make sure her throat has returned to norman and to see if norman is not what her throat should be, there was lots of swelling and it was an odd shape when they xrayed after the choking incident. she is looking forward to going, i know she is going to kick off and not drink the stuff or stay still for the xray and it is going to be oh so much fun!
i have my parcels packed up and ready to go, just gotta send em off, so that is on the cards too, as well as opening bank account for the window cleaning round.
its all go here!
spent the day with stephen the human sex god yesterday. he phoned me saying he had turned his phone on early yesterday incase i called, i have given up calling in the morning as either his phone is off or he doesnt answer or he does answer and was sleeping so tells me politely to feck off.
anyways, we went out for lunch to sainsbos, drank coffee and ate expensive sandwiches and he chatted away to beau who was playing shy. t'was really good fun, then popped down to see rob, his 6foot 5 friend who was a total star for me when i lost the plot in june. beau thinks he is god and was hoping to raid his fridge, the cheeky mare! his ginger cat, jasper (who looks like my morpheus) was about and being all cute and cuddly (not like him at all!) then climbed on the roof and started doing his "i'm a ginger cat and i'm just plan odd" bit, just to stay in character.
went and got kids from school and then a very strange thing happened, steve showed them how to make and fly the best paper planes, edz totally got it and made around 50 of the bloody things! then from planes they moved onto birds and then frogs and in the end, we had a whole frog chorus and enough birds to keep the pidgeons out the garden! lol he only drank 3 bottles of beer (after the 2 can of kestral) and didnt swear either!
if you dont know steve his is a raving alcoholic, that swears and smokes and cant stand being around the kids too long. yesterday, he was in his element and so were they! and also got me to order some books from ebay about origami so he can do more with them.
so he does have his uses, no matter what anyone says!
when i took him home, we were chatting about a certain person that we both know and someone that they like, turns out the liked person is my bessy mate niccis boyfriends sister, and also stephens brothers bessy mate. sycronisity again! so i popped over nic's on the way home and freaked her out demanding to know why she was out with steves brother when i was in manchester! rofl she thought i was having a go at her, bless her. as if i could, my lovely lil naughty nitty ;o) so to come full circle, that is all a kind of poetry in itself, the whole continuation with rhythm and rhyme, my life is at about 3 degrees of seperation at the moment!!
small world keeps getting smaller.
Tuesday 4 March 2008
still deaf
and in pain :( taken 6 antibiotics so far and still have this loud buzzingy/hissy kinda noise in my right ear. nic phoned earlier and i couldnt hear a bloody thing through my right ear. this is not fun. i was actually worried about laying down to sleep as sunday night i had to sleep sitting up and all my naps (of which there were several) were all sitting up because laying down the pressure increased in my head and my ear started hot shooting pains down my neck and into my head. i dont like this.
roast chicken dinner tonight and paul is just stripping the bones to go into the slow cooker for making stock over night. i love free meals!! bit bored of risotta now, gotta find something else to make with it. thinking maybe spanish garlic chicken, i can stick that in the slow cooker tomorrow and bugger off out for the day if the weather holds. did a load of cleaning today, if i get my arse into gear earlier enough, i will get the bathrooms done and food in slowy and out before lunch.
i also have a mountain of orders to fill! but no time. i remember when i am on school run, or up to eyeballs in washing or similar. need more hours in the day, yes yes, i could be doing it now, only i cant get into the garage as there has just been a load of stuff dumped there which will be moved tomorrow, so maybe then ....... maybe!
been thinking about stuff today, when i drove to the school this morning i noticed the trees at the darbys corner roundabout were starting to bloom. last year the whole roundabout was covered in blossom when such a dear dear friend was sent starside. he was the sweetest man and i always wished he could have been my dad. he had more time and endless patiences and always a kind word or something encouraging to say. i took my poetry over to him one day, read him some of it. he told me how good he thought it was, what his favourate was and that i should read it to my dad. i tried, but my dad wasnt interested. it was because of this man that i went to malaysia. his passing broke a huge chunk off my heart, my paul thought that having the trip to look forward to would help me heal and it did. yes, willowc, your pappy.
although i lost so much more last year, this was just the tip of the iceburg. the blossom on that roundabout will forever mean the anniversary of his depature. its still a couple of week until his birthday, but i shall toast him with a large whiskey when it turns.
got a new phone too, far too hard for my girl brain to work out tho ...... must get new tiknulijee chip installed me thinks.
roast chicken dinner tonight and paul is just stripping the bones to go into the slow cooker for making stock over night. i love free meals!! bit bored of risotta now, gotta find something else to make with it. thinking maybe spanish garlic chicken, i can stick that in the slow cooker tomorrow and bugger off out for the day if the weather holds. did a load of cleaning today, if i get my arse into gear earlier enough, i will get the bathrooms done and food in slowy and out before lunch.
i also have a mountain of orders to fill! but no time. i remember when i am on school run, or up to eyeballs in washing or similar. need more hours in the day, yes yes, i could be doing it now, only i cant get into the garage as there has just been a load of stuff dumped there which will be moved tomorrow, so maybe then ....... maybe!
been thinking about stuff today, when i drove to the school this morning i noticed the trees at the darbys corner roundabout were starting to bloom. last year the whole roundabout was covered in blossom when such a dear dear friend was sent starside. he was the sweetest man and i always wished he could have been my dad. he had more time and endless patiences and always a kind word or something encouraging to say. i took my poetry over to him one day, read him some of it. he told me how good he thought it was, what his favourate was and that i should read it to my dad. i tried, but my dad wasnt interested. it was because of this man that i went to malaysia. his passing broke a huge chunk off my heart, my paul thought that having the trip to look forward to would help me heal and it did. yes, willowc, your pappy.
although i lost so much more last year, this was just the tip of the iceburg. the blossom on that roundabout will forever mean the anniversary of his depature. its still a couple of week until his birthday, but i shall toast him with a large whiskey when it turns.
got a new phone too, far too hard for my girl brain to work out tho ...... must get new tiknulijee chip installed me thinks.
Monday 3 March 2008
why is it?
that you get the worst earache of your life at 2am?
went to bed at half 12, took 2 paracetamol as it was hurting then, by half 1 i was in agony, so took 2 codeine and got another hot water bottle, after 15 mins i was in complete agony! never known anything like it, throbbing, bursting pain down my neck and into my head. paul woke up with my crying and rocking. he phone the outofhours gp, just as well have phoned to speaking fucking clock! take decongestant. havent got any, take ibuprofen. cant they make my stomach bleed. dont lay down. how will i sleep then? dont, you are in pain. no shit. get an icepack, will be better than heat. could you do anything? er no, go see your gp tomorrow IF it still hurts! well my bloody gp is far too busy for the likes of me and my pain, so seeing practice nurse in an hour. this morning however, my ear has been leaking bloody and i still have this weird buzzing noise. feel asleep sitting on the chair in the kitchen for 5 mins earlier, that was odd. feel all spaced out from the codeine i took during the night and out of paracetamol.
why does it always have to be in the middle of the night tho? i dont get it. why cant it come on around lunchtime on a tuesday?
this is the 3rd week running i have been to gp's! more than i have gone in the last 3 years! they are gonna be fecking sick of me! that or think i'm munchausens! lmao
went to bed at half 12, took 2 paracetamol as it was hurting then, by half 1 i was in agony, so took 2 codeine and got another hot water bottle, after 15 mins i was in complete agony! never known anything like it, throbbing, bursting pain down my neck and into my head. paul woke up with my crying and rocking. he phone the outofhours gp, just as well have phoned to speaking fucking clock! take decongestant. havent got any, take ibuprofen. cant they make my stomach bleed. dont lay down. how will i sleep then? dont, you are in pain. no shit. get an icepack, will be better than heat. could you do anything? er no, go see your gp tomorrow IF it still hurts! well my bloody gp is far too busy for the likes of me and my pain, so seeing practice nurse in an hour. this morning however, my ear has been leaking bloody and i still have this weird buzzing noise. feel asleep sitting on the chair in the kitchen for 5 mins earlier, that was odd. feel all spaced out from the codeine i took during the night and out of paracetamol.
why does it always have to be in the middle of the night tho? i dont get it. why cant it come on around lunchtime on a tuesday?
this is the 3rd week running i have been to gp's! more than i have gone in the last 3 years! they are gonna be fecking sick of me! that or think i'm munchausens! lmao
Sunday 2 March 2008
coughing
hurts!
i have chest infection, its mothers day, i should be having lovely day with the kids, but i have to cough from deep in my chesting, making my eyes water and my ears pop. not pretty. altho some of the lumps i've coughed up have been rather erm rainbowed!
paul has fallen asleep on the sofa with beau, and sparks has discovered x-files which makes me laugh as i now get never ending questions about it!
went over to toni's yesterday. clive has finished decorating the back room. paul and i helped her and clive reorganise it and it really looks lovely. i am also the proud owner of 2 collages by walter nessler of which i am very proud. i need to put a hook in the wall upstairs for the one and the smaller one with rocks and stuff on it is up in the lounge above the tv. toni's late husband, alex, was great friends with walter and she has LOTS of his paintings, sketches and collages. toni has put up one that he did of her in the back room, and the 2 nudes that are a pair are in the front room, one of them i absolutly love. it is just a charcoal one, but the lines are sweeping and generous, just like mine ;o)
toni took the children to the park and clive went home and brought along his daughters little dachshund, tallula, who was a total hit with everyone except sparky as she kept chasing him. i sooo want one, if nothing else, just to see paul with it on a lead!! lmao but in general, i just love them, my grandparents had them when i was small, and they are great dogs, even if they look a bit like ferrets! paul isnt so keen ;o)
i have lots of lush too, a girl can never have too much lush ;o) we were running low since valentines!! lol ok, maybe not low, but i do love a lush bath and so does paulee! had a comforter bath this morning which was great, tis my fav bubble bar. didnt get a sakura bath bomb, which is the cherry blossom one, but i can live without it, i think.
oh oh oh! was steves birthday yesterday, went over to see him on friday, hadnt seen him in an age, before beaus accident! took him his tshirt, you are nothing without your robot - nothing! which he loved and 4 tall cans of stella, he was made up. i also fell asleep on his bed, showing how ill i really am! anyone that knows steve is now going eeewww (actually it was clean) he is so sweet he played soft music to sooth me and took a photo to show his mates how he did get a woman into his bed! lmao! anyways, i called him yesterday, he was with rob who thought the tshirt was great, and totally phsl!! my work here is done :o)
going to go hunt some cough remedies from the kitchen, there has to be something.
i have chest infection, its mothers day, i should be having lovely day with the kids, but i have to cough from deep in my chesting, making my eyes water and my ears pop. not pretty. altho some of the lumps i've coughed up have been rather erm rainbowed!
paul has fallen asleep on the sofa with beau, and sparks has discovered x-files which makes me laugh as i now get never ending questions about it!
went over to toni's yesterday. clive has finished decorating the back room. paul and i helped her and clive reorganise it and it really looks lovely. i am also the proud owner of 2 collages by walter nessler of which i am very proud. i need to put a hook in the wall upstairs for the one and the smaller one with rocks and stuff on it is up in the lounge above the tv. toni's late husband, alex, was great friends with walter and she has LOTS of his paintings, sketches and collages. toni has put up one that he did of her in the back room, and the 2 nudes that are a pair are in the front room, one of them i absolutly love. it is just a charcoal one, but the lines are sweeping and generous, just like mine ;o)
toni took the children to the park and clive went home and brought along his daughters little dachshund, tallula, who was a total hit with everyone except sparky as she kept chasing him. i sooo want one, if nothing else, just to see paul with it on a lead!! lmao but in general, i just love them, my grandparents had them when i was small, and they are great dogs, even if they look a bit like ferrets! paul isnt so keen ;o)
i have lots of lush too, a girl can never have too much lush ;o) we were running low since valentines!! lol ok, maybe not low, but i do love a lush bath and so does paulee! had a comforter bath this morning which was great, tis my fav bubble bar. didnt get a sakura bath bomb, which is the cherry blossom one, but i can live without it, i think.
oh oh oh! was steves birthday yesterday, went over to see him on friday, hadnt seen him in an age, before beaus accident! took him his tshirt, you are nothing without your robot - nothing! which he loved and 4 tall cans of stella, he was made up. i also fell asleep on his bed, showing how ill i really am! anyone that knows steve is now going eeewww (actually it was clean) he is so sweet he played soft music to sooth me and took a photo to show his mates how he did get a woman into his bed! lmao! anyways, i called him yesterday, he was with rob who thought the tshirt was great, and totally phsl!! my work here is done :o)
going to go hunt some cough remedies from the kitchen, there has to be something.
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