what a weekend!!

i decided i would be mega organised and sort out everything, plan stuff for everyday of the half term, it is the first half term the kids have had and i wanted to make it fun and busy.
we had friends due over for dinner on sunday, monday friends from swimming coming over for lunch and friends from our home ed group over for tea, today we were off to weymouth to see my late grandads girlfriend. none of it happened.
at the beginning the fridge was empty and i needed to get to the supermarket, river came with me and paul was going to clean out the fridge and clean the bathroom whilst i was out. river and i went to the cafe in sainsbos for coffee and cake and bumped into the mother of children river and eden went to school with when they were at their other school before home ed and this new school. we had a chat, exchanged numbers and promised of catching up next school break. then went off to do the weeks shopping.
had roast chicken planned and found 2 free range chooks, meant that i could make stock and then risotto for tea when we go back from weymouth today. got loads of salady stuff and jacket spuds and soups for meals yesterday and thursday after we had been to my friend tonis' for lunch.
i had written a list and got everything on it except my flaked chillis i need for my grinder, even stuff for me minus wheat to try and get rid of this swelling.
got to the till, chatting with the lady putting my stuff through about my plans of cleaning, cooking, feeding the 5000 and packing up my stuff into my bags, when river comes over with his phone, said it was his friend james' dad, it was paul, he said
"something has happened to beau, you have to get out of the shop now, she is unconcious."
i said something about sorry, something had happened to my little girl and ran.
trying really hard not to think about why or what had happened and not taking risks, but still driving too fast and making it in just about 4 mins.
when i got into my close, there was ambulance car, ambulance, paul and james dad steve by ambulance and paul crying, steve was white.
i jumped out without turning off engine (which river did i'm told) leaving car in the middle of the road, and ran to ambulance, steve saying "she is ok" and my tiny lil beau is laying on the stretcher with a tube in her mouth sucking stuff out, lines in her feet and blood running down her leg where they couldnt get a line in. paul was hysterical, in hindsight i should have let him in the ambulance to the hospital as he was a state, but i couldnt leave her. after a couple, maybe 5 mins at the most it was time to move her to A & E.
we blue lighted horn blaring driver swearing to poole hossy, she was moving and whinging, but very sleepily, not concious at all really. paul was there within a minute of us arriving. they let us stay. she had her clothes cut off and had heaters to warm her up.
i hear to story as paul retells it, he had been cleaning the bathroom upstairs, beau was watching harry potter (again) with ty on the sofa, there were kids in the garden, kids in the playroom, james and cam were here from 2 doors down. james said to chase something was wrong with beau in the kitchen, chase pulled her to bottom of stairs where she calls paul, who is on phone to rocky, he drops phone (turns out rocky heard all of the following until pauls phone was used again) and turns beau, who is now starting to turn blue, upside down and does gentle back slaps. runs outside to call for help from someone, one of the kids go and grab steve and ambulance is phoned, ty also phoned ambulance, penny (steves mum) comes up too, she ends up talking through steve what ambulance control is telling her, they move the food to one side and get air into her, but it is too tight to get out and she is having some gentle stomach compressions too as per what ambulance control were saying, this is all on the front grass/muddy area.
my kids and cam are inside my house and james (10) watched it all, all he could remember was recovery position, but that was needed, and he was there to help should anyone need him to grab something or anything, i dont think he realises what a help he really was. paul thought that she had gone, steve was telling him they were not going to let her go and all kinda thing. not only was steve working on beau, but also trying hard to keep paul from completely loosing the plot!
ambulance arrives, ambulance car arrives, they aspirate what they can (which turns out to be a fair bit of wafer thin chicken FOR THE CATS!) as i arrive.
another line in for getting some fluids in, the one in her foot is used for taking blood, she is put on O2, her pupils are dilated, contracting slowly and she in unresponsive. she has xrays and she becomes figity so i get on the gurney to keep her in one place and warm. xrays are showing swelling and that is normal for her situation. they really want her to wake up. she isnt planning on it. she also was making some weird noises with her throat so they are keeping options open as to whether they were going to get a camera down her throat under a general anesthetic and has a nebuliser with adrenaline in for about 20mins. the team of 10 goes down to 3, and eventually we are moved to high dependancy unit of the childrens ward. she is on oxygen, a drip with glucose, has a pulse ox in her toe, 3 sticky pads for heart rate, breathing and soemthing else that i cant remember, and a bp cuff. all i can think is she looks so small.
she starts to come around about 6pm, wants a cuddle and a drink and a wee (which she doesnt do) the pediatrician does some neurological tests which are all fine. the noise from her throat isnt so pronounced and as she stull needs some O2 they want to keep her in over night. i went home to get changed and see the kids and stuart who had come to take over from nicci who had taken over from a traumatised steve, all ok here except my kids pushing their luck, nothing new there!
i went back and paul came home to get changed and then came back with some KFC (grumble grumble moan - i wanted burger king) and stayed until about 1am, she had been awake for a couple of hours and had a wee in the potty, some weetabix and begged for some chippies (er no) after paul left, i dropped off to sleep holding her hand, the monitors kept waking her up and someone else was admitted to the next bed, which worried her a little so i got up and slept with her in the very small uncomfortable bed, which was lovely, she cuddled me and i her for the next few hours whilst we both slept on and off.
in the morning, she was fairly bright, the monitors and O2 has been stopped during the night, monitors kept waking her and o2 levels were stable at 95/96%. paul got there about 8am and the doctors came around soon after. they wanted a radiologist to look at the xrays, which they did around 4.30pm, and we spent a boring day waiting for this to happen, i got in an hours kip with her on her bed again and she had all her tubes and sticky stuff taken off.
follow up is xray in a few weeks to review and take it from there.
popped into tesco at the end of the road and steves wife, sharon, was on the lottery till just inside the door and she rushed over to me, leaving her till, shouting at her pal that *this* was *the* little girl! tears flowed, hugs all around. beau got steve a card with a flower and some flowers, red ones, coz she thought he would like them, all her own choices, also she got stuart some dog chews to give missy, coz (and i quote) "missy will love stuart for giving her them and that will make stuart a happy stuart".
after we got home, we popped down to steve, as i know he had been going out of his mind with worry, she gave him his flowers and card and wasnt at all the shy little girl she had been with sharon and everyone else that she knows that she saw more of than him, she just looked at him.
so there we have it, my little girl has an angel that lives in our street!! what steve did meant that the ambulance crew was working with a heartbeat ultimately. thank you doesnt even come close to covering it.